No guts. No glory.

I either care about others more than myself, or I'm just a wimp. Maybe a little of both. Who knows? But both are serious character flaws. My life is about to change drastically. I want this change, need it desperately. Too bad my spirit is too weak to actually begin the transition from past to desired future. It's gonna take a straw to break my back, and that will be it. I'll explode. Everything will move at once, people will get hurt, and I'll be completely calm through it all ... just like every other time my life has changed direction. I'd expect it to be easier, since I've had to do this before, but it's not. I guess that answers my first question. Suppose I'm a wimp. Ah, well, admitting that you have a problem is the first step, right? Hah. Pray for me. I always need it.